Congrats Jo! Where is your summer????
I did do Insanity early this morning as was expecting the handyman who didn't come till noon not the 9:30 he said
So finished week 3 of Insanity, one more week till recovery week! I think I will survive. The workouts aren't getting any easier.
There are 2 guys here, doing a list of odd and end jobs to get the house ready for sale. DH has done lots of things but there were a few things he didn't feel he could do a professional looking job. Kind of weird as they are all over the house, projects in all different rooms and they are switching back and forth. I guess letting things dry so I don't really know what to do with myself. No school for the kids, ds is over at a friends and dd is hanging out with me. I feel guilty relaxing with these guys working so hard, so I cleaned carpet stains, weeded the back yard, cleaned the oven, etc. It sounds like they're going to work into the evening, it feels kind of strange making dinner/feeding the family with them working in the other room.
Cendrine, to be honest, I don't really talk about it. I usually just breakdown if I try and so I don't. I find Mother's day the hardest. His name was Christopher Andrew and he died from Trisomy 18/Edward's Syndrome which is similar to Down's Syndrome but almost always fatal. I found out 6 weeks before my due date the diagnosis, and was told that he most likely wouldn't live very long. I went 15 days past my due date so if was a very long 8 weeks of waiting. It was a very awkward time for many people, you know when you're 9 months pregnant, complete strangers stop and talk about your belly
Patients and coworkers who didn't know what was going on would ask questions about the baby. What do you even say, when you know that the baby that you're carrying will die soon after birth. Instead of decorating the nursery we were pre arranging the funeral. Christopher was our second child and having ds who was 2 at that time really was such a blessing. When you have a child at home, you have to hold things together. Then my dad died a year and half later at age 60, 6 months before he was suppose to retire. He died of a aneurysm while on holiday in Mexico. My poor mom what a nightmare for her. At least they were with another couple.
You know when Christopher died, that's when I discover the internet. We had it on the computer at home but I never really bothered with it. But at that time I would be up during the night not being able to sleep. I googled Trisomy 18 and found a website which was a support group for moms who had lost babies. It became a godsend, they were all so sweet. I found myself there in the middle of the night often. After I had dd I was ready to move on and found a post partum weightloss group which I really needed as I had babies less than a year apart.
Okay, so I guess I do talk it. You guys make it easy to share. Thanks.
