Hi there
I can sympathize with the difficulty of quitting smoking.
On February 18, 1990, I got clean and sober and a little over two years later in March of 1992, I quit smoking. It was harder than getting clean in many ways.
13 years later, I occasionally still get strong cravings for cigarettes. I miss the whole ritual and "feel" of smoking at times. I even have smoking dreams from time to time.
Several things have kept me from relapsing.
1. My husband would not stand for it (also a former smoker).
2. It would be a bad example for our five children (and hypocritical too, as we have spoken strongly on the evils of smoking)
3. I have better health than I would have if I had continued to smoke all these years.
4. My breath, clothes, and house don't have that smoker smell.
5. My skin is younger looking than it would be if I'd continued to smoke.
6. I have saved thousands of dollars from literally going up in smoke. I simply could not afford the habit now--not on one income with five kiddos. My hubby and I at times like to figure out how much money we have saved ourselves by estimating the life time cost of smoking--It's a lot of money.
Sorry this is such a long post. I encourage you to continue to try to quit. It will be so good for you in so many ways, but I understand that it is hard. I think that nicotine is one of the most addictive substances there is.
Keep us posted on your efforts and don't give up!
take care
Maggie
