It's too nice out to be in such a funk...

[Ginny V]

Nancy's earlier post about going shred crazy really hit a nerve for me. The clutter and junk in life just seems to be too much sometimes. What frustrates me is that I'm really not a shopper and I get rid of things all the time, and yet I look around my house (even after a purge session) and wonder where the heck it all came from. I feel trapped!

I'm also frustrated because I have an entirely different agenda than my DH. We have about 15 projects that must be done that I can't do on my own (lack of money, time or skill), so if he doesn't help then I need to hire someone. I can't afford to pay to hire everything though and he won't agree to chip in because they're things he can do. I told him that the evergrowing to-do list is depressing me and I don't even want to come home from work some days. He thinks that's silly. I don't want to just pick away at things because I need to see bigger results at this point.

One nice thing is that I gave my neighbor about $300 worth of landscaping blocks a while back (no strings attached since getting rid of them was one of the projects), and when I went outside to weed now that we finally have a nice Minnesota day...she was cutting up and burning my yard refuse pile for me (another project). I nearly cried!

AAaaargh! Thanks for letting my vent!

Ginny

 

[Ginny V]

I just re-read my post and...

Let me just add that I have no business feeling so sorry for myself and should be grateful...my DH and I watched the tornado that destroyed homes and lives in Hugo last week as it moved across a field about a thousand feet behind our house. And no, we shouldn't have been watching, so we are especially fortunate!

I guess I better get a grip!

Ginny

 

[Aquajock]

Hey, Gin, a shout-out from a fellow Twin-Citian:

Yes, it is important to count one's blessings, but it sounds like there's a bit of a life pile-up going on for you. I know that for me, sometimes I get all hung up on wanting to see The Big Bang and ignore the smaller tasks that, when completed, are just as important as the big 'uns. Maybe if a couple of those smaller, more mundane tasks are addressed that might take the edge off the irritation.

I do know what you mean about it being too nice outside to be in such a funk, but sometimes - many times - the funk is very real, and no amount of sunshine can obscure it.

Hope things get better for you!

A-Jock

 

[Ginny V]

Thanks for your words of encouragement, Annette.

You're right, the small tasks make a difference too. Weed pulling helped. I know everything will get done eventually...I'm just having a pity party. I HATE it when I lose my genie in a bottle!

G