2/9 Back in the Game

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sblordita

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Hey ladies!

I'm so sorry I've been playing hookie the last week or so. This just wasn't a good week. I felt horribly depressed, stressed, frustrated, and sick even. I think I may have made myself sick, though. Yesterday was the absolute worst... I just couldn't contain myself anymore and I started bawling while talking to my mom and later started bawling talking to my DB. I think I'm just feeling overwhelmed. Moving is such a huge thing, and I will be moving into the house of an obsessive-compulsive hoarder (to the ultimate extreme!). It is one of those things that you'd have to see to believe, but to give you an idea, this woman has been sleeping on a recliner for the last 10 years because she can't get into her bedroom. That's just the tip of the iceburg, and it's stressing me out completely. She's allowing us to clean it out, but I'm just afraid that it will become too much for her for us to be handling her stuff. And to her, clean is just a pathway from the door to the bathroom. I know, because she's done it once for us :| . Then there's the issue of money (or lack of it!). My DB has discovered ebay, and I think it is the most evil thing known to man!!! Just becuase you CAN buy everything doesn't mean you have to :eek: !!

I had hoped that my couple of months home would be good, but my sister and her husband are almost unbearable. The reasons why would take up 10 psts,but they are probably a good source of my anxiety.

So anyway, I've gained weight, lost strength, and have had 3 migraines in the last week and a half. Today I had a bad one, but it only lasted a couple of hours. Tonight I began feeling much better and happier. I hope it lasts. I have been able to work out twice this week. It's weird, because I'll feel horrible all day, and then at 11 at night, I suddenly feel better. I took advantage of it and did Step & Intervals and then Power Hour a couple days later. I think tomorrow I'm going to see how the High School track is and go for a nice walk/jog. I think I need sunshine :)

How are you guys doing? Keep up with the fantastic work! Lori, you need to run for 3 of us now, so you'd better start training hard :)

Bobbi, thank you so much for the kind words a few posts ago. It means a lot me, and I am so glad that I have you here to talk to. It seems I don't do much more than whine and complain lately, but being able to share my as-of-late unhappiness is very helpful as well. And getting on here and knowing that you two are routing for me makes me want to try harder. Thank so much!!!

Have a good Monday!

Sara
 
Hi Sara and Bobbi,
Its been a good monday morning thus far! DH left for 1 week yesterday.I thought that yesterday was going to be a long and dragged out day b/c he left first thing in the morning.But it wasn't to bad actually.I went to his moms till noon,worked out until 2:30,took a nap at 4,took the dog out at 5,went to my in-laws for dinner at 6,and went to a movie and 8.Doesn't sound to boring does it?
Today I have to finish cleaning up stairs before I do anything.I was planning on running outside but there is to much snow on the pavement.Today is going to be a long cardio b/c I did full body yesterday.I think this week,I am going to do the PS Series.I love that one even though it is older.
We went out to a party on Staurday night and I have to say that I felt pretty darn good.It was one of those nights where you put a outfit on and thought" I don't look so bad after all".I tend to look at myself naked more then anything and you can definitly see things to improve on when you look at your self with not a stitch on!:) Even though I gained back some of the weight I lost over christmas,I still haven't gained back the love handles.And those things are so hard to hide! When they aren't there,I feel like I can wear pretty much anything.I also think my legs are getting smaller,since I have been running and stepping.:) Enough about me!

Sara- Who in God's name are you moving in with? Is she overweight or elderly? Are you moving in with her by yourself or is it you and DB? You can't workout either when you move? I think I would have to.I would at least run it by her.Anyway,I hope everything works out for you.We know you have been busy lately.When is it your moving?
No offense but I am so glad I am settled...don't mean to rub it in!:) My days of moving are behind me.Unless we build a house in a couple of years or Dh gets transferred. But I hated everything about moving.I wish you the best though.:)

Bobbi-Whats going on with you? Its been quite around here the last couple fo days.Its a good thing that I didn't expect the forum to keep me company yesterday:) I know it was Sunday,who wants to spend the day in front of a computer?
With DH got all week he doesn't need his office so I am free to check the computer as much as I like.I use his office for my computer addictions and there are mornings when he as conference calls or needs to work in here and I can't use the computer.Well, I never know what to do with myself.I get snaky and I think..."can't he find something to do out side of the house for a hour?" "Its not his office..ITs MINE,MINE,MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!:eek: " I can be a whiner when I want:)

Anyway,I will check back later ,after I workout.I am not sure if I will work out before lunch or after...we shall see!
LOri:)
 
Hi, kids! I had a crazy-busy weekend but I did do PP at maximum weight (70 pounds for squats--the hubby had to spot me) and I did 10-10-10! But I was on the move all weekend, saw a concert and had dinner with my DH on Friday, Saw the Return of the KIng and had dinner with the same guy Saturday and took my middle daughter to lunch and Big Fish on Sunday since she baby-sat her brother all weekend.

Sara, Of course, you are stressed and overwhelmed! As Lori says how nice it is to be setteld, that's what we like and nedd in our lives, to be setteld and right now you are anything but!

Try to look at these trying times as temporary. They are! I know you are capable of making the best of a bad situation. It's n your nature to be flexible and giving but I pray you won't do so at the cost of your contentment. Make boundaries as best you can with each person who is making you anxious.

And do work out! Not because you have gained a few pounds but because stress is easier to deal with when you get some endorphins going! Once you settle in as best you can, start thinking down the road a little to how you can change things to make them better suit you. If you can come through this and remain as lovely and gentle as you are--and I KNOW you can--you will be a stronger person for it. Just search for ways to make it more amenable to you and nicely but firmly demand respect from the people who are inhabiting you life!

You, lovely young ladies have an awesome day!
Bobbi "Chick's rule!" http://www.handykult.de/plaudersmilies.de/chicken.gif
 
Holy...70lbs.I think the most I ever used was 50lbs and when I was done I had to walk over to the couch and plop the weights down off of my shoulders.Your one crazy chicky-poo!:) Its good to know that I am not the only one who as gone exercise crazy.
Another good thing.We were trying to get pregnat(still are I guess)but we didn't really try this month.I have had two periods since I started running more and they have both been regular.I figured with all of the running my body may go nuts again but it stayed the same.Thats a totally different topic though.We are wondering now if we want anymore.My little girl is almost 8 now.Start over again??????:eek:
Anyway, ijust finished my workout.I did a 80 min run and 1/2 of Imax 1.The run went by pretty fast b/c there was a couple good shows on and that kept me occupied.
I picked up a frozen veggie pizza at the grocery store today.I never know what to have when my DH is gone.I could go with out eating at all.But pre made pizza is on the menu for tonight.....
chat to you soon,
Lori:)
 
It's only for the short heavy workouts and it's amazing how strong the lower body is. I wish my upper was as strong! I did PLB and PUB yesterday, heavy but not maxed out. I am doing cardio ony today, Step Jam, I believe but I have to check my schedule. Tomorrow is yoga which I love! Ta ta for now!
Bobbi "Chick's rule!" http://www.handykult.de/plaudersmilies.de/chicken.gif
 
But still...I can hear my knees cracking when I lift that much weight.It just doesn't seem right.I am also nervous that my lower body will get bigger if i lift heavy.I think my cardio sessions lately have been great on my "bum:) " and hamstrings.
I have to get a yoga DVD.I like doing yoga but I need it to be eye level.I do my workouts in the basement with the VCR.And I have to look upwards.But with the DVD player,upstairs,I can just look staight a head.Prehaps I will get one some time this week.I pilates DVD or yoga.Something to make me feel stretched.
Today is one of the PS workouts.Its going to be upper body and cardio tonight.I won't get to workout until late.Maybe I will do my run around American Idol time again.I can do the PS video from 8:30-9:30.Oh but there are so many shows that come on tonight.I think Will and Grace is moved to tonight...I hope they both don't come on at the same time.
I am trying to eat differently today.Enough sugar.I am not lying when I say that yesterday my diet was 60% sugar.I was eating it and I didn't even crave it.I am going to have to buy some gum and when I finish my dinner,stick a piece in my mouth.I am also trying to eat the BFL way.I enjoy eating this way.It allows you to eat your carbs,meat and veggies.Nothing is unlimited when it comes to fruit.I mean I can eat my fruit instead of a carb but atleast I am aloud to eat it:) I hate diets that don't let you eat a certain food group.Thats just my opinion though.I think we should be able to eat anything in moderation:9
I went to bed last night at 10 and I feel very well rested.I had 8 hrs of sleep.I don't remember the last time that I got 8 hrs of sleep.I feel so much better when I get the right amount of rest:)
Well,I hop everyone is having a good day.I will be checking back later...
Lori:)
 
Hey ladies :D

I'm very happy to report that I'm feeling much better today. Yesterday was pretty good, too. I'm just feeling better. Still frustrated-but better.

I had a good talk with my DB and a good talk with my mom today. I needed to be able to talk with Ray about my nervousness and what I was worried about. The woman we are moving in with is my DB's aunt. She isn't overweight, she isn't elderly, and she is overall a wonderful woman. She just has this sickness that she refuses to acknowledge. It is so bad that she has been staying at hotels and resorts most of the time to get away from it... And you'd think that if somebody were that afraid of their own place, they'd do something. But she is truly and frighteningly attached to her "stuff". And it is just STUFF. Very little of sentimental value, just junk that she buys...and forgets about. She finally said that she was so tired of it and would let us clean it out. BUT I just have the very bad feeling that it will become a bad situation. Because maybe she'll let us clean it once, but I'm afraid that the day-to-day control loss caused us trying to keep it clean will be too much for her to handle. I saw evidence of that when we went to SD in September and began the cleaning process... she promised us she wouldn't come home for the entire week, but she actually dropped by nearly 4 times a day! Anyway, I am worried, but I guess it could turn out to be fine.

But we figure this - if things don't work out in California, we can always come back home and work on plan B. Neither one of us has any clue what that is :) but that's alright, too. And I also had a very long talk with my mom about the fact that she and my dad are extremely unsupportive of my decision to move. It's not because they think I'm making a "mistake". They think I'm being selfish and have no reason to be so far from home. My dad is the most unsupportive, because he can't even be nice when he talks about it. I know that it's because they love me, but it still hurts when they can't stand behind me with such a tough decision. Sooo ANYWAY, we got parts of that out of the way and I feel a bit better.

I managed to do Kick, Punch, & Crunch today, too. It felt great! What a cool workout. Unfortunately, my hip is really hurting me now :( I really have to take care of that as soon as I get moved. But later on tonight or tomorrow is Legs & Glutes. I just can't stay away from the new ones any longer!! With my motivation not so great, I need FUN. And my eating has been great the last two days... that also improves my overall well-being day-to-day.

Lori, good luck on your way to motherhood :) I have no words of widsom or advice to offer... I haven't even babysat more than 5 times in my life! And most of the times I needed my mom to help me out :D I just don't have the maternal touch.

Bobbi, I'm quite amazed by your weight-load, too. I hope to get there some day soon :) Just in time to move, right? I am going to get a gym membership as soon as I get there just so I have a place to go to unwind. Even if I have to take out a loan for it, I don't care!!

Goodnight for now :D I hope you enjoyed my first full-fledged novel... hahahaaha

Sara
 
Sara, I like your novel and I am glad you are feeling more up! Maybe you can keep the stuff but box it up and organize it so it's not all over the place. Way to go on KPC. And it's great you talked things out. Very smart move!

Lori, you kill me when you run for 80 minutes and tack on Imax 2! That's gotta be equal to 70 pounds for squats! There were 7 and 8 years between my girls and Sam and it was great they were wonderful helpers, still are!

I did Step Jam but I am putting Cardio Hits and Classics on the shelf. They feel dated to me. Jazz hands, LOL! I am fixing to get into the Intensity Series in March. Only a few more weeks of heavy traiing. I am ready for the break.

Nighty Noodles, ladies!
Bobbi "Chick's rule!" http://www.handykult.de/plaudersmilies.de/chicken.gif
 
Good MOrning Ladies,
YEp,thats a good story:) I didn't get to read it before I went to bed though.
Im sure everything will workout for the best.I think what scares us the most is..our parents are always right.So if they disapprove of this maybe you feel like you may be making a bad choice.Either way it is your life.You do what feels best.I would love to go to California sometime.Actually the airline that I work with ,starts flying to the States in Oct.I may book a trip for our anniversary.Altough,I have to say that if he was close to me now I would ring his neck.
I got a question for ya! Why do men complain that women spend so much money/time shopping but THEY buy bulls#*t stuff or just waste piles of money? I won't even get started on the Bowflex that we bought. If he doesn't use it and I am soon going to sell it.
He is gone away on business.EVERYTHING is paid for.He needs NO money.He goes and takes $100 out.Then some payments came out of the bank account.Truck payment,insurance payment...then I look and there is $400 taken out again.Thats $500! Has he lost his mind?That was all that was in there.I am here now with NO money.The dog needs food and I don't even have any money for that.But he took $500 out "JUST IN CASE".I said well....you have $500 for just in case and I have no money for anything.Its not like I need any money b/c he gets paid tomorrow and there is always the emergnency fund,if need be.BUT I would never be able to take out that much money for "just in case".I wouldn't even spend that much money if I was buying clothes. And if I did...well,lets just say that I would have to explain myself.
I only ever take money out to pay bills.I can't remember the last time I bought myself a treat.(but I think I will this weekend)If he comes back with no money...chances are,I will buy myelf a couple of treats:) I just don't understand them! They complain about us....but the things they buy have a few zero's on the end of it.
But I did say to him the other day.The next time we buy something,its not going to be for you.I am going to get a new fridge and stove OR a new bedroom set.Every papaer I have ever signed as been for him.It my TURN:7
Sorry I am on a rampage(im not done yet)......THEN I dropt my little girl off at school.I went to get a coffe and my $2 was gone! The only one I had.I figured that she must have took it.Then I had to drive all the way back home,in search of some money...then I had to go back uptown again to get my coffee.I didn't want to make my own.Its a good thing that its a good coffee!:9
Thats it,I am done complaining,I was in a pretty rotten mood earlier.Oh...and then when the lady driving in front of me stopped for a green light seconds before it turned yellow.That put the icing on the cake....WE WERE STOPPED AT A GREEN LIGHT!!!!!!
Now,I am done.See I can write my own book when I want to.

I did PS ches,shou,and tri last night.I wasn't in the mood to do cardio but I forced myself.I ended up doing a 60 min run.I am still no sure of what I will be doing today.I should have upped my weights last night.The chest work was fine,but I could have went heavier with everything else.I must be getting stronger:)
Bobbi-I don't own step jam or the other two you mentioned.I never bothered buying them b/c I barely do step heat and step fit.But cathe is always putting something new out for us.God love her!:7
Thats it for me.Hope everyone has a good day....hopefully I will have a better one then I have been having!
Lori:)
 
Lori, Lori, Lori! This is exactly where you get to come and complain! It's good to be able to vent, then we don't have to kill our husbands! Mine's the same I spend all the money-he just works and makes it and I burn it, lol!

I'm doing yoga today but I think I already told you that. My son was weeping about going to the school daycare for 3 hours with only other kindergarteners! He goes once a week! He was weeping buckets! Just so I'll feel guilty for taking me time and, boy, do I need me time. But that's another novel. LOL!

Have a great day, Lori and Sara and I will catch you later! :)
Bobbi "Chick's rule!" http://www.handykult.de/plaudersmilies.de/chicken.gif
 
Lori, you made me laugh so hard! MY DB is exactly the same... He complains because I spend money (always my own - I don't take his) on clothes, gifts for my family, food, etc. BUT he spends money on cars... he owns 10 of them. $7,000 for an Impala, $1,000 for a '59 El Camino, $2,000 for a pile of junk cars, $2,000 for a wrecked Jeep Cherokee, $2,500 for an '89 4-Runner, not to mention the car parts he buys from ebay!! We're talking $500 here, $1000 there, $200 again. It's phenomenal. Oh, and that's just in the last year!! The other day, when I wrote on here that I would get liposuction if I could, I said the same to him, just because I was feeling pretty bad about myself... He said "Why would you do that.... it's too expensive!!" He couldn't say that I look good the way I am or that I don't need it, or that it's dangerous, he had to say it's too expensive.

Yes, I think I know EXACTLY where you're coming from x(

I'm still here at the MathLab. It's empty so I'm amusing myself :) I'm actually supposed to be typing up info so that we can do some stats on the students and times and types of classes they're in, but this is more fun. I was going to do Legs & Glutes when I got home, but I'm hurting from KPC... I didn't think it worked me THAT hard, but geeezzzz... Besides my hip being troubling, my muscles are crying. I'll probably do Rythmic Step or something... Maybe try Step Blast or something fun :D And use only the top of my step :( I'm in horrible shape right now.

I am having a cup of coffee now so I'm sure I'll be ready to do something in a bit. I'll check in when I'm done :D
 
YEah,I have calmed down a bit since the A.M. Im not quit as moody.
KPC doesn't feel that hard,when your doing it,but the next day I feel like I got hit by a truck.You wouldn't think that it would be that tough but it is.
I don't think I will get a chance to workout tomorrow unless it is in the night time.Depends on how much energy I have.I am soon going to go to bed b/c I have to work at 7 in the morning:-(
Anyway,chat to you later,
Lori:)
 
I'm glad you're calmed down :) I've been pretty grumpy and jumpy myself the last couple of weeks actually. It made my face blow up and now I have the largest acne breakout I've ever had... quite sad, because it's an exact indicator of how stressed and frustrated I've really been.

I haven't worked out yet :( It's 7:00. I went the whole day without any food, because I woke up literally 5 minutes before I was supposed to be at work. So I ate dinner (a little much) just a bit ago and, without thinking, had a Wild Cherry Pepsi for dessert. First soda I've had in weeks, but the sugar most definitely didn't make me feel good. Since I've been staying up so late, I might feel good to go around 10. We'll have to see.

Hopefully I have something good to report :)

And I'm still SO JEALOUS and I want a treadmill or elliptical trainer. I'm just itching for running and walking, etc. I think I'm slightly burnt out on videos for awhile, I think. I always go through stages, and normally I can go to the great outdoors and feel better. Oh well.

Have a great evening guys! I'm watching American Idol right now. I wish I had a voice more than anything... I'm obsessed with beautiful voices and I can't even warble a lullaby. I can always dream, I suppose :) Daydreaming is supposed to keep your mind healthy anyway.


Sara
http://www.picturetrail.com/rayiisara/sblordita
 
Yeah,there is some pretty good talent on American idol.I think they are better then last years but we will have to see what the other groups are like.Maybe they had all of the good people on the one show:)
Im just heading to work now.Its 6:40:-( I don't feel to sleepy though.I kept waking up and looking at the clock.Plus,my little girl is sleeping with me so thats like sleeping with a lawn mower;-) Shes all over the place.
I am not sure if I will get to workout today.I am not busy at work tonight, I may be able to get off early and then workout.I hope.B/c if we go away on saturday I will be missing at least two days of working out.I don't like taking to much time off b/c its hard to get back into.
The treadmill is gett'in kinda boring.:-( I really only enjoy it if I can get on it for 5-15 min and then do something else.I knew that was gonna happen.Its like anything I suppose.
Eating was good yesterday to.I have to be careful today b/c I am up so early that I tend to eat more b/c I get so hungry around 8...and then I end up poking stuff in my mouth.
Anyway,must go to work
Lori
 
Hey :)

I just finished Legs & Glutes. Wow, I LOVE IT! I'm shocked that I was able to match Cathe on her weights again. It's the weirdest thing that I have NEVER been able to match Cathe's weights, even when I worked out consistently for a year at a time. But lately, at my weakest and most out-of-shape times, I'm able to match her on just about everything. My aerobic capacity is way low in comparison to normal, and I owe that to my lack of running. Because I'm obsessive compulsive and can't do an "easy" run, that gets me in shape faster than anything.

I still don't look in shape, either. My legs are the jiggliest they've been in years (cellulite included). Just the fat over the muscle, I guess. I want to see that muscle!!!!!!!! That's ok - i should feel very lucky that I'm as in shape as I am for slacking off so badly.

Tonight for me is date night :) I think we're going to go see Cold Mountain and then find a restaurant that is actually open past 9:00. Around here, that leaves only a casino, and the cigarette smoke is not my favorite appetizer. I guess Wendy's is open late :D

Thanks both of you for the kind words and support over the last few weeks. I am feeling SO much better now. Mentally and physically.

Happy Valentine's Day!!!! If I'm not back before then :) Have a great weekend.

Sara
 
HI Girlies,
Sara-You have to stop being so hard on yourself.Now,I am probably not the best person to be giving you that kind of advice but I really don't think there is a need for you to feel so horrible.Your obviously not that much out of shape, or you wouldn't be matching Cathe on the weights.Sometimes all you need is a good break and you come back finding your muscles stronger.And I think we would all have jiggley legs if we stood in the mirror and poked at them! Thats what you were doing, weren't you????????;-)
Today was an o.k day.I worked pretty much all day.I took a quick snooze at 4.Then I went back to work at 5.I got off around 8 and I started to workout at 9:20.I did a 80 min run but that was it.I think tomorrow is going to be a full body workout and cardio.
DH is back tomorrow,sometimes we spend the rest of the day together but he may want to go on ski-doo for a little while so I can workout then.Besides we are going away for the weekend so we will spend lots of time together.We will see.If not, I may have to take the day off.
How is bobbi doing?????????????? Keeping quite today??????/
Anyway,I must go clean up a little and hit the sack.I am starting to feel sleepy now!
Lori:)
 
Good morning! I skipped working out altogether yesterday and I think I needed it. My bod stayed pretty sore from doing PLB/PUB together, that good soreness, and I did yoga on Wednesday and had a pedicure, my first, LOL! My kindergartener's Valentine's Day party was yesterday and then I had errands, got home cleaned a little and it was time to take the 15 year-old to the orthodontist and before I knew it I had to make dinner and clean that up! The day flew away!

I haved decided on SJP today to knock off cardio and weights in one fell swoop!

Sara, you sound more positive and I knew you would get there. Not that you've ever been all that negative, because you have remained remarkably centered in spite of all your stresses. You are young and you'll blast that jiggle pronto! I want you to workout because it's so great for dealing with stress. But I agree with Lori. You aren't doing much damage and when it all comes together, it will come very quickly. I quit working out for the better part of a year after 10 years of faithful exercise and I started with yoga and walking and graduated to intense cardio and heavy strength training in less than 6 weeks.

Lori, as always, you are as busy as busy can be! Have a great weekend with your hubby. It's Friday the thirteenth, woo-ooooo! :) I used to think superstitiousness was pretty kooky and then my third child was born on Friday the 13th and I knew there was something to it becasue he's a devil-child! Just kidding, LOL! I am one of thirteen kids so I think it rocks and so does my son!
Happy Friday the 13th! Do 13 fun things today! Or at least one!
Have a great day!
Bobbi "Chick's rule!" http://www.handykult.de/plaudersmilies.de/chicken.gif
 
Thanks Bobbi.I think we will have a good weekend.We are child free and we are gonna see some friends that we haven't seen in a while.
I didn't get to workout yesterday but I am up early today to workout.We have a 3hr drive a head of us but we are in no hurry to get there(or Im not,DH wants to leave now).There isn't much we have to do once we are there,plus we have all day tomorrow.And I can sleep when I get tired!:)
Anyway,I am going to try and do more cardio today.I only have 1 hour so I have to make it a good one.I think I am going to do interval runs plus some segments from Bootcamp to give me a break.
Anyway,hope everyone has a good weekend and I will be back on Monday!
Lori:)
 
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