Hi everyone;
Today was the combo premix with ME and BootCamp. 1st time I've done this premix and I just kept having to pause so much to adjust my weights and stuff . Maybe when I get used to it I'll be better prepared although this workout did work me hard & I like that
I have had a couple of busy days where I have had no time to do anything but collapse on my bed at the end of the day.
Had a nice weekend with my hubby and kids and I didn't have to do anything yesterday.
I have found over the weekend that I suffer from body image distortion

...I always see myself as being on the heavy side . I've lost 30 #'s with WW and I'm close to goal. I guess with working out with Cathe things have toned a bit because this weekend I went shopping for some pants as the ones I got the beginning of the year were getting too big. I started with the 12's and ended up into size 4's, got 3 outfits that showoff my work in progess but I kept wanting to get bigger clothes. I just can't beleive it. I checked the label size and flys could’ve entered my mouth. No way I thought… I can’t be fitting into a size 4, I still need to register it in my brain.
My hubby has been telling me that I’ve lost alot of weight but I was like yeah, yeah whatever. I know the number on the scale has gone down but I just don’t see it. Yesterday I saw someone at Lowe’s that I haven’t seen in close to a year and the 1st thing she told me was “Wow you got skinny, you look so much younger and my God you’re so thin!. ” I’m still having a very hard time hearing people tell me how much thinner I look. It feels good to know that all my hard work is paying off but I’m having a hard time with people giving me so much attention over it. It feels really wierd and uncomfortable when my apperance becomes the hot topic x(.
I see myself still 30#'s heavy and in clothes that cover me up. Does the mind finally start to accept it or will this be something I need to come to times with. It's really weird I should be showing it all off but when the attention gets too much I just want to hide.
Can anyone here relate to what I'm talking about?
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